Because no one's going to read it anyway,

just a thought...

2007-06-20T03:52:11Z

COPELAND

"Love Affair"

Fell past a cheekbone hill
To a piece of her floor.
The hope of the world
In an awkward spill.

Oh she'd lie on her bed
And stare into harsh white light.
And think that her heart's not right.

'Cause love took her hand like a thief,
took her heart like a robber
and the feelings that scare her
become her relief.

Just let me run where I want to run
Just let me love who I want.
Just let me run where I want to run
Just let me love who I want.

In a flash a heart is slain.
You have to ask in all this pain
Was your heart too soft?
Was your love in vain?

Was your kiss too weak?
Were your eyes too tight?
And much too young to be in love.
Much too young to be in love.

Just let me run where I want to run.
Just let me love who I want.
Just let me run where I want to run.
Just let me love who I want.
Just let me run where I want to run.
Just let me love who I want.

There are no rules for this love.
Just keep your head and don't give up.
Like all the fools who play it smart.
Lose your head just for your heart
Just for your heart...

what to do, what to do?

2007-06-17T03:14:18Z

So i finally got an awesome 13" white macbook. It's pretty sweet. The only problem is that i don't know how to set up a network on my home computer system so that i can just move my songs & pictures folders over to my new computer.... instead of redownloading EVERYTHING. The only other option is to move it over (at a turtle-like pace) on a 1GB jumpdrive. I haven't even tried to install Zune on this computer yet... i'm just too afraid that it won't work. That would be SO devistating. Hopefully, that won't happen.

Today i ordered this protection cover that is see-thru and red at the same time. From what i'm told, it makes the macbook look like it was born red.... and I'm thinking that i might order an applesac too... check them out here. I am pretty sure that i will be getting the burlap-esqe one.

In other news, i got a moto razr today. I've never had anything motorola before, so this system has taken some getting used to as well. But now i've entered all my contacts and whatnot so i feel more familiar with it. I would have already put a lot of awesome ringtones on it, but once again, all of my songs are on the dell. I also got the cute little bluetooth earpiece for when i'm driving and all that jazz.

I think that the most important news overall is that today (*fingers crossed*) i finished all of my shopping for the dorm. It is all packed up and ready to go. Now just 19 more days and i will be leaving.

Words cannot express the anticipation and stress that i feel right now. I know in my heart that in 3 weeks from now i will be in a brand new environment, but i don't know how i'm going to deal with it. My entire life i have dreamt of moving out of a small town and into a big city; now that it's time to do it, i can't imagine how it's going to be possible. My only concern is that i don't let my family and friends down. I've never had to live without them, and i would hate to disappoint them on my first try... especially after we've invested ALL of this capitol. omg art school is expensive. I'm hoping to subract A LOT from my house-sized loan by (hopefully) winning a scholarship. I should know soon whether or not i won. All in all, if this art school thing doesn't pay out big bucks, i will take my college debt to my grave (something i'm obviously not looking forward to).

stuff

2007-05-21T10:35:39Z

I guess you learn a lot about people from their Myspace account. I like reading others' "about me" sections because they are heartfelt autobiographies written to either impress or explain. I think it is amazing to see how people think they are perceived by others.

what i've become

2007-05-16T10:19:29Z

I have become a myspace/facebook/livejournal blabbering idiot.....

Somebody save me!

I can't get anything done..

graduation presents

2007-05-15T10:59:51Z

So, yesterday I went shopping for the first time to actually get stuff for my apartment. All I bought was a mini fridge and a complete bathroom set. Ronny and i spent so long on that one aisle trying to decide on a color scheme and then figuring out what accessories i needed. I don't think i could have done it without him.

And on Saturday, Ronny and I went to see Relient K, Mae, and Sherwood. That show has got to be the best show I have ever been to! Those three bands are the best! I got to meet most of Sherwood, some of Mae, and one of RK. The show was really weird I guess because there were a lot of church groups there (which means a lot of people who were new to the whole concert experience). Add that to the fact that we were packed into a bar, basically, and then add in the fact that we were on Jacksonville Beach (on the strip) late at night and then you can imagine how hot it was in that building. A lot of the "newbs" in the pit weren't prepared for the raw energy of it, or the heat factor, to say the least. We were able to make it up to about 3rd row center, where i was surrounded and squashed by those boys that realize how packed the pit is and start pushing everybody (so annoying)... The show was pretty intimate, as far as people on stage singing to me <3. And everybody had an amazing light show. 3 days later, my ears are still ringing.

A lot of people went to the Plush on Sunday to see Underoath, Maylene, and Norma Jean, which was also a Christian show. I can mostly say that I am glad that I didn't go. First of all, I only like Underoath out of those three, and then, there was WAY too much testosterone for me in that building. period.

All in all, my weekend and beginning of the week was GREAT! Both of those things were part of my graduation gifts, be it a concert from my baby ronny, or a save on cash that i began getting in the mail a week ago. Either way you look at it, it points to an awesome summer ahead!

<3 Maelyn

wooo

2007-05-11T01:54:47Z

i just won a $500 scholarship =)

GAH

2007-05-09T23:39:07Z

why am i so stupid!?!

finally

2007-05-09T15:00:08Z

which is ironic.... because there are NO MORE FINALS. Now i can rest :)

the bible promise book

2007-05-09T10:50:54Z

"When there is no wood, the fire goes out. Where there is no one telling secret stories about people, arguing stops."

Proverbs 26:20

yesterday

2007-05-09T10:46:44Z

yesterday i began *cleaning things out* so that i could pack easier in July. and then Monday i tried on my cap and gown to make sure it fit. This is all coming together now...

so i guess I'm the only person who is not interested at all in going to graduation parties. I could actually care less.

What a nerd.

i need to be studying

2007-05-08T21:01:36Z

BUT I'M SO BORED! i want to do something new!

I'm actually supposed to be studying for my English final....

2007-05-07T23:48:44Z

but what the heck.
If you ever want people to respect you for who you truly are, maybe you should respect yourself... stop being a [slut] and stop being a [fake].

Situations that have come to my attention:

2007-05-07T12:30:55Z

On November first of last year, i decided that i would be getting in to the Georgia Institute of Technology and that i was perfect for the school and there was NO WAY i would get denied. Then in March of 2007, i received a letter that said i was, in fact, denied!
Since then, i have been pulling out my hair because everyone else in my life seems to have a perfect plan of what they are going to do when i am obviously in the dark.
On April 28th, I attended Open House at the Art Institute of Atlanta and decided that i actually fit in more there than at GT.
Since then, i have discovered that some of those people i thought "had it together" in fact had nothing together. Just because they were accepted to their dream school didn't necessarily mean that they were even going to go!....
I can't believe that for a fraction of a minute I actually considered staying in town to attend college. Staying in town has never been for me (even though it might be what's for you) and i know that the satisfaction of going to Atlanta will be my justification for trying as hard as i could while attending Pierce County Schools.
I realized that the reason why i was unsure of my future was because i was unsure of what i was getting into. Looking back on my life, i realized that everything that has led me up to this moment has also been leading me up to my career path. It all makes sense!
All in all, I am challenging myself and my peers to do what they can while they still have all the life in them. If you don't have the money to leave town, BORROW IT! Unless if you drop out of school and never get a job, you won't regret it. Do; however, keep in mind that loans must be repaid.

Finals

2007-05-07T12:06:02Z

finals are so.......... redundant?
basically Calculus is the only one that is going to give me problems; no matter how much i DON'T want to take it, i will nonetheless be sitting in Dr. Howell's room at 10:15 until 12:15 (against my will). Ugh. Finals disgust me. It makes it even worse that i am borderline failing :S

i lied

2007-01-23T01:42:12Z

the other day i had my physical at BFP and i lied.....

yes, i am stressed out
yes, i would like to lose weight
yes, i am uncomfortable with the way my body currently looks
yes, my heart does hurt from time to time

what was i supposed to do? ....tell the truth?

i guess it's over........

2006-12-17T19:26:20Z

so yesterday i became single. It gives me a chance now to find out who i really am. NO, i don't want to talk about it or think about it because the situation was terrible and i don't want to reminisce.

Consequently, i feel that the decision that i made was the best possible choice, considering the options. I still love ronny very much and i'm sure that when the time is right we will be reunited.

Thats all i guess.

i have learned that...

2006-12-10T03:17:26Z

life is never what it seems
relationships are progressive and change (for better or worse) continuously
dunkin' doughnuts doesn't make the greatest coffee in the world

downhill

2006-12-05T23:19:53Z

down......down........down

Georgia Tech

2006-12-05T03:09:07Z

This is the last chapter of my old life. In one month, i become legal, i am accepted to college, and i get my nose pierced. It's all going to happen by Dec 31, 2006. I am ready for this closure. Most importantly, i'm ready for a new book.

SAT today

2006-12-02T11:08:28Z

Geez! this thing came up on me a whole lot sooner than i planned. But i mean, it's only the SAT. No harm, it doesn't decide anything... Actually, it doesn't. I find out this month if GaTech wants me or not--based on my old score; a lower, decent score. In all honesty, i'm just taking this SAT for some security. END.

I'm going to go see angels and airwaves today... after the SAT...with ronny. Soooooooooooooooooooooo excited.

<3 maelyn

Angels and Airwaves

2006-11-30T19:12:58Z

im going to go see them in 2 days!

and i can't wait.

is it true?

2006-11-26T14:48:25Z

is there really only 2 weeks left in the semester????'

...finally!

SATs

2006-11-25T07:35:55Z

I'm going to be taking the SATs for the second time ever in my life exactly a week from now. Why am i more nervous? I'll tell you why: I've got something to prove. I'm going to raise my scores at least 200 points in each section. That's why.

I just want my sketchbook..... :(

Why is it hiding out in the jeep?

ANYWHO i need sleep (8o

peace

Do yourself a favor

2006-11-22T03:14:07Z

and don't bail on me so much.

college

2006-11-20T03:01:46Z

sometimes i just feel overwhelmed because i start to think about college. Yes, i want to be an architect. BUT i want to be a graphic designer. i want to be an illustrator. WHERE AM I GOING TO COLLLLLLLLEGE?!? Is gatech really going to accept me? i find out next month. HOnestly, i'm not looking forward to finding out because that's going to make it harder for me to change my mind. In 17 years of life, i have to figure out what im going to be doing for the remaining 60 or so. Does anybody else see a problem with this? I can't even decide what i'm going to want to wear tomorrow, not to mention 2 days from now. Architecture will be fun, but i just want to draw. It would be really cool if i could just spend my life being a painter. However, painting won't pay the bills... as much as i'd like them to. i want to paint my room in all graffiti... i wonder if mom will let me. It's not like anybody can see in here, anyway. My room is sooo blah. THere is no decorating structure at all. I guess i could stay in my current field of interior design. SIKE. I hate my job. I would never, ever pick out fabric patterns and paint chips for the rest of my life. But will the same thing go with architecture? what is out there that i don't know about? I just want to be creative for the rest of my life. Now THAT would make me happy.